Wow, its been over a year since I wrote anything. Last  year was a rough on many levels for me. To start with I had a really rough class and everyone tried to tell me that they understood. That didn't help at all. If anything that pissed me off because they weren't in my shoes. They didn't know how bad it was. Then I had friendship issues with having to try to please all my friends and that isn't possible however I tried and only caused myself heartache in the long run. I did learn not to worry as much about what others think and I am still working on that I can't please everyone all the time. That sometimes I have to take care of myself first and that is OK. I am allowed to put myself first.

This school year so far is so much better than last year. I love my class and I am learning to value my team we had a rough start with one teacher quitting in the middle of this last quarter for medical issues. I know she had some however I think she made them worse to get out. She seems fine. I know being a teacher isn't easy and my district has a lot of expectations which I think are good to have. However teachers at my school seem to be in groups and you are either in the groups or your not. Its strange I am not a group kind of person. I always try to get along with everyone and sometimes its hard but I try.
 I have spend the first week of my winter break thinking about what it means to be a teacher. This is after the horrible shooting in Newton Conn. Where 20 children and 6 adults lost their lives due to one mentally unstable man. Who would want to kill murder first graders my heart breaks every time I watch the news. I know without a doubt I would do whatever it takes to safe any of my students. I treat each students as if they were my own. I love them with my whole heart. I truly believe teaching is a calling. I had a student from my first class who is now a high school freshman message me that at his high school football awards he listened to the coaches talk about inspiring people in your lives and how you need those people and how they impact you. He told me that he only thought of me during that speech. That I made a difference in his life. That means more to me than I can ever say.
Well I hope to be better about writing this year, We shall see...